As I sit here tonight on Halloween thinking about Carlee and Caden it brings tears to my eyes just thinking of Caden and what will the holidays bring. I sit here tonight thinking I wonder what we would of dressed Caden up as.
I went Christmas shopping on Friday by myself, and was shopping for Carlee and Caden. We are going to donate Cadens Toys to Phoenix Children's Hospital in February for his birthday. I went to the section in Target for 6-12month olds and I almost burst into tears thinking that I dont have Caden here with me. I had to think of my friend Kursty's little boy. He is 2 weeks younger then Caden and wondered what would he like for Christmas. I had to imagine him being Caden and thought, okay well at this age he would like this. I can see now why people say the holidays are hard after losing a loved one.